North Carolina

Wow, i haven't wrote an entry in a while. I have been in North Carolina for the past week, and I'm finally going home tomorrow morning. Finally is supposed to be out there if you know what i mean, and if you dont i will explain it to you.. i have prety much had almost the worst week of my life, when you are stuck in a house with family, some are alike and some are different. The people that are alike colide, they bump heads and the people that are different, stay out of the way of the people who are the same. if that makes sence at all.. my sister and my cousin are alike one another, not completely alike, there are some great differences but the similarities colide hard.. its bad.. my cousin is 6 months older than my sister and my cousin thinks that, that makes my sister immature and her mature. i dont think my cousin realizes that what she does to get back at my sister is very, VERY immature. . my sister has pretty much been the bigger person in this whole dramatic situation and for that i applaud my sister.. because she barely is the bigger person in my and her fights. but my cousin she is very immature, she thinks just becuase she is 17, skinny, and pretty, she can be the one in charge of everyone, but the thing she doesnt realize is that she is not at all. but enough about my over baring bitchy cousin. Oh and one more thing, i could always loose weight, but you will always be a bitch.

So i spent a whole week without him. . it was the hardest thing i have ever had to do, i missed him more than i have missed anyone in my whole entire life. this whole week without him just made me see clearly, i love him more than anything. he is my world now, and i dont ever want that to go away, my lips cant describe how much he means to me. He is everthing, and i would do anything for him. i have missed him so much, maybe it was good for me to go on this trip.. maybe it wasnt. but all i know is that i dont want to ever leave him again. i miss his touch and his hugs and his smell and his lips and his voice, i miss everything about him and im glad im going home, and my whole reason for going home is so i can see him.